Great, the old emotions are back == Here's comes my problem...yet again

I realize now, I have a problem that I always endure. There's this time on my point of happiness crumble so suddenly with many emotion that I keep ignoring. And then at that good time happiness moment, this bad memories suddenly burst. I can't help it if this happens. I became insane at first, then the anger release as if the river flows through the hillside. The anger I hid was blurred out and yeah, it ends up with me having no friends. This always happens every time i got to do something great or made a new friend that I really enjoy. For you guys that caught up in the cross fire, 

I'm sorry.

I didn't meant every word I said.

Well, maybe I did but..I'm just too exaggerating my feelings.

But still, I didn't mean it

I have a weird condition. I have emotions and personality issues. I just want you guys to know that I'm like this because I'm not making it up. It just is. 

I'm writing this while I try to stay calm. But blogs doesn't have people yelling at you like, "You wanna fight er something?" Or something like that. SO I can easily relax while typing this. But I just don't know, right now I just don't want to even see chat groups and other social internet stuff. I don't feel like chatting to the friends that I just met face 2 face today and the gamer chat group. I'm just having a bad mood, that's all I guess. I've gotta clear my mind. And maybe after that, I can return to my throne.

Sayonara, minna-san

I hope you can accept who I am